Well, for the past 24 hours, I've devoted most my free-thought time to thinking about the direction that I want to go with writing for 20 more days straight. There was at least 10 minutes, maybe more, where I sat and thought about topics that I would write. I even made a list with sub-lists. It was only 4 items long, but that's a big deal for me to sit and devote that much effort to something. My time is precious and I only want to spend it on certain things, silly or serious.
I noticed that I was returning to two themes. First, was my children. I love playing with them, going on adventures with them, and taking pictures of their chubby wrists and kissable cheeks and their ever-changing facial expressions. I could write about them forever, and eventually everything would come back to one theme-pictures with phrases like "ohmyheavens, they are so precious! I love this season of my life!"
Second, I kept wanting to talk about, write about, think about different changes that have happened in my life. All of them are good changes. All of them. Some of them are big and some of them are small. I am in the midst of some changes, and some changes are behind me. I've mentioned some here, but I've never fully disclosed them.
It's not like I'm trying to hide them or be secretive. I've never taken the time to process them with my thoughts and my words. Sure, I've talked to John about them, but it's usually me asking really hard questions and him kindly responding with, "I don't know, but that's a really good question!"
I want to continue to talk about those kids of mine and our little adventures. However, I want to spend some time putting words to all these big and little changes that are going on in my life. If we fully understand something, then we can fully explain it. Right now, I want to create some time and space for me to think about these things in a structured way. For the next 20 days, I'll work through that list of changes that have happened, and I will sprinkle it with thoughts and pictures of my family.